Colin’s taken to being hurtful towards me. Whether it’s making faces at me once I’ve turned my back (Rick’s caught him at this a few times) or saying rude things to me when I correct him or discipline him…it’s all hurtful and frustrating.
I’ve had an emotionally exhausting day. My hormones are in full swing and I know I’m blowing things out of proportion left and right…but tonight was a low blow.
I went to kiss the kids goodnight and after I kissed Colin’s cheek, I said, “What, no kiss for me?”
With a straight face, he said, “No, I don’t want to kiss you.”
I left his room and just fell to tears. I told Rick what happened – saying it out loud made me feel ridiculous for the meltdown I was having. It just drives me mad to think of all the ways I’ve turned my life upside down for him and the thanks I get is hostility and hurt. I never expected him to say, “Thanks for all you do, Mom!” But to have him resent me and act hostile towards me…I just don’t even know what to do.
Rick said, “He’ll understand one day.”
But I don’t think he will.
I’m usually okay with that. But today…I was already hurting. This was just a little too much for me today.