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Autism Awareness


Two years ago, all I knew about autism was that it was an unfortunate thing that sometimes happened to kids.  I’d heard rumors of what caused it and I had a mental image of how an autistic kid probably looked and acted.  But that was about as far as I’d ever bothered to go.  I thanked my lucky stars that my baby was born mentally and physically healthy and, well… I was not affected by autism, so I felt no need to learn more.

Now it matters to me.  Now I find myself wishing it mattered to everyone else as well.  I find myself wanting to teach anyone who shows the slightest interest (though I’m not someone who ever really pushes info onto others)…and yet, I have so much still to learn.

When people ask me, “What is autism?” I stumble and stutter.  I try to explain it based on what I have experienced with Colin, but I’m not always able to find the words.  I want to show them more than tell them.  Telling them just doesn’t seem to be enough.

Whenever we go out in public and Colin gets wound up or says/does something inappropriate, I always struggle with how much I should share with strangers.  “I’m sorry, he’s autistic,” just doesn’t seem appropriate for so many reasons.  Usually I’ll let him know he’s acting inappropriately and then pull him towards me (or ask him for a hug) and smile at the stranger, saying, “He’s my special boy!” 

He doesn’t fit the stereotypical image of autism.  He’s very verbal and very active. I think most that are uneducated with regards to this condition (as I once was) picture a non-verbal kid, rocking and flapping their hands, avoiding any interaction, touch, etc.  As many of you know, that’s far from true in so many kids.

Short of putting a button on him (like the one you see above in my post), I sometimes feel at a loss.  But to do something like that would say that label defines him.  He’s so much more.  He’s silly and funny…and he can be really caring and sweet.  He’s smart, too!  He can already use a screwdriver with ease (not that we’re thrilled with this development!!).

He’s Colin.

I told myself I was going to write about my other boys soon… but with April being Autism Awareness Month, I felt I should share a bit more on this topic.

Here is one of my favorite things to read as a reminder of where I need to be and what he needs from me:

Ten Things Every Child with Autism Wishes You Knew

by Ellen Notbohm

1.  I am first and foremost a child —  a child with autism.  I am not primarily “autistic.”  My autism is only one aspect of my total character.  It does not define me as a person.  Are you a person with thoughts, feelings and many talents, or are you just fat (overweight), myopic (wear glasses) or klutzy (uncoordinated, not good at sports)? 

As an adult, you have some control over how you define yourself.  If you want to single out a single characteristic, you can make that known.  As a child, I am still unfolding.  Neither you nor I yet know what I may be capable of. Defining me by one characteristic runs the danger of setting up an expectation that may be too low.  And if I get a sense that you don’t think I “can do it,”  my natural response will be:  Why try?

Sensory integration may be the most difficult aspect of autism to understand, but it is arguably the most critical.

2.  My sensory perceptions are disordered.  This means that the ordinary sights, sounds, smells, tastes and touches of everyday that you may not even notice can be downright painful for me.  The very environment in which I have to live often seems hostile.  I may appear withdrawn or belligerent to you but I am really just trying to defend myself.  Here is why a “simple” trip to the grocery store may be hell for me:

My hearing may be hyper-acute.  Dozens of people are talking at once.  The loud speaker booms today’s special.  Musak whines from the sound system.  Cash registers beep and cough, a coffee grinder is chugging.  The meat cutter screeches, babies wail, carts creak, the fluorescent lighting hums.  My brain can’t filter all the input and I’m in overload!

My sense of smell may be highly sensitive.  The fish at the meat counter isn’t quite fresh, the guy standing next to us hasn’t showered today, the deli is handing out sausage samples, the baby in line ahead of us has a poopy diaper, they’re mopping up pickles on aisle 3 with ammonia….I can’t sort it all out; I’m too nauseous.

Because I am visually oriented (see more on this below), this may be my first sense to become overstimulated.  The fluorescent light is too bright; it makes the room pulsate and hurts my eyes. Sometimes the pulsating light bounces off everything and distorts what I am seeing — the space seems to be constantly changing.  There’s glare from windows, too many items for me to be able to focus (I may compensate with “tunnel vision”), moving fans on the ceiling, so many bodies in constant motion.  All this affects my vestibular sense, and now I can’t even tell where my body is in space.

Receptive and expressive language and vocabulary can be major challenges:

3.  Please remember to distinguish between won’t (I choose not to) and can’t (I am not able to).  

It isn’t that I don’t listen to instructions.  It’s that I can’t understand you. When you call to me from across the room, this is what I hear: “*&^%$#@, Billy.  #$%^*&^%$&*………” Instead, come speak directly to me in plain words:  “Please put your book in your desk, Billy.  It’s time to go to lunch.”  This tells me what you want me to do and what is going to happen next.  Now it is much easier for me to comply.

4.  I am a concrete thinker.  This means I interpret language very literally.  It’s very confusing for me when you say, “Hold your horses, cowboy!” when what you really mean is “Please stop running.”  Don’t tell me something is a “piece of cake” when there is no dessert in sight and what you really mean is “this will be easy for you to do.”  When you say “It’s pouring cats and dogs,” I see pets coming out of a pitcher.  Please just tell me “It’s raining very hard.”

Idioms, puns, nuances, double entendres and sarcasm are lost on me.

5.  Please be patient with my limited vocabulary.  It’s hard for me to tell you what I need when I don’t know the words to describe my feelings.  I may be hungry, frustrated, frightened or confused but right now those words are beyond my ability to express.  Be alert for body language, withdrawal, agitation or other signs that something is wrong.

Or, there’s a flip side to this:  I may sound like a “little professor” or movie star, rattling off words or whole scripts well beyond my developmental age.  These are messages I have memorized from the world around me to compensate for my language deficits because I know I am expected to respond when spoken to.  They may come from books, TV, the speech of other people.  It is called “echolalia.”  I don’t necessarily understand the context or the terminology I’m using.  I just know that it gets me off the hook for coming up with a reply.

6.  Because language is so difficult for me, I am very visually oriented.  Please show me how to do something rather than just telling me.  And please be prepared to show me many times.  Lots of consistent repetition helps me learn.

A visual schedule is extremely helpful as I move through my day.  Like your day-timer, it relieves me of the stress of having to remember what comes next, makes for smooth transition between activities, helps me manage my time and meet your expectations. 

Don’t let autism cause you to lose sight of the whole child.  Self-esteem is crucial.

7.  Please focus and build on what I can do rather than what I can’t do. Like any other human, I can’t learn in an environment where I’m constantly made to feel that I’m not good enough and that I need “fixing.”  Trying anything new when I am almost sure to be met with criticism, however “constructive,” becomes something to be avoided.  Look for my strengths and you will find them. There is more than one “right” way to do most things.

8.  Please help me with social interactions. It may look like I don’t want to play with the other kids on the playground, but sometimes it’s just that I simply do not know how to start a conversation or enter a play situation.  If you can encourage other children to invite me to join them at kickball or shooting baskets, it may be that I’m delighted to be included.

9.  Try to identify what triggers my meltdowns.  Meltdowns, blow-ups, tantrums or whatever you want to call them are even more horrid for me than they are for you.  They occur because one or more of my senses has gone into overload.   If you can figure out why my meltdowns occur, they can be prevented.  Keep a log noting times, settings, people, activities.  A pattern may emerge.

10.  If you are a family member, please love me unconditionally.  Banish thoughts like, “If he would just……” and “Why can’t she…..”  You did not fulfill every last expectation your parents had for you and you wouldn’t like being constantly reminded of it.  I did not choose to have autism.  But remember that it is happening to me, not you.  Without your support, my chances of successful, self-reliant adulthood are slim.  With your support and guidance, the possibilities are broader than you might think.  I promise you – I am worth it.

And finally, three words:  Patience.  Patience.  Patience.  Work to view my autism as a different ability rather than a disability.  Look past what you may see as limitations and see the gifts autism has given me.  It may be true that I’m not good at eye contact or conversation, but have you noticed that I don’t lie, cheat at games, tattle on my classmates or pass judgment on other people?  Also true that I probably won’t be the next Michael Jordan.  But with my attention to fine detail and capacity for extraordinary focus, I might be the next Einstein.  Or Mozart.  Or Van Gogh.

They had autism too.

The answer to Alzheimer’s, the enigma of extraterrestrial life — what future achievements from today’s children with autism, children like me, lie ahead? 

All that I might become won’t happen without you as my foundation.  Think through some of those societal ‘rules’ and if they don’t make sense for me, let them go.  Be my advocate, be my friend, and we’ll see just how far I can go.